Slivers of Memory.

Well, it's like the passing of something dear to you. That, or a gallstone.

Either way, this little baby will be locked at some point.

My new place is here: lucule 

I'm Friends Only that thing.

I'd hope to see you all there.


Farewell.

So I think it's time I retired this account.

I have my other account, which I've been ignoring and that really needs to not be so ignored. It'll be my writing/stuff probably not about writing but will try and make it sound like it LJ.

I have reasons for putting this to the dust, but anyway. When I remember the password for the other account, I'll post the name up here. It'll be private.

It's been fun poorleno, but times have changed.

I wish to write something.... horried. Perhaps in the next couple of days.

Thanks to you, madam, and Dead Space.

Kissed any one of your LiveJournal friends? — Yes
Been arrested? — No
Kissed someone you didn't like? — No
Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes
Held a snake? — Yes
Ran a red light? — Yes
Been suspended from school? — No
Experienced love at first sight? — No
Totaled your car in an accident? — No
Been fired from a job? — No
Fired somebody? — No
Sung karaoke? — Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? — Yes
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yes
Kissed in the rain? — Yes
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — No
Saw someone die? — No
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — Yes
Smoked a cigar? — Yes
Sat on a rooftop? — Yes
Smuggled something into another country? — No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? — Yes
Broken a bone? — No
Skipped school? — Yes
Eaten a bug? — Yes
Sleepwalked? — No
Walked on a moonlit beach? — Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? — Yes
Dumped someone? — Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? — Yes
Lied to avoid a ticket? — Yes
Ridden in a helicopter? — No
Shaved your head? — Yes
Blacked out from drinking? — No
Played a prank on someone? — Yes
Hit a home run? — Yes
Felt like killing someone? — Yes
Cross-dressed? — Yes
Been falling-down drunk? — Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — Yes
Eaten snake? — Yes
Marched/Protested? — Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — No
Puked on an amusement ride? — No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — Yes
Been in a band? — Yes
Knitted? — Yes
Been on TV? — Yes
Shot a gun? — Yes
Skinny-dipped? — Yes
Given someone stitches? — Yes
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — Yes
Ridden a surfboard? — Yes
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — Yes
Had surgery? — Yes
Streaked? — Yes
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — No
Tripped on mushrooms? — Yes
Passed out when NOT drinking? — No
Peed on a bush? — Yes
Donated Blood? — Yes
Grabbed an electric fence? — Yes
Eaten alligator meat? - Yes
Eaten cheesecake? — Yes
Eaten your kids' Halloween candy? — No
Killed an animal when not hunting? — No
Peed your pants in public? — No
Snuck into a movie without paying? — Yes
Written graffiti? — Yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? — No
Think about the future? — Yes
Been in handcuffs? — Yes
Believe in love? — Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — Yes

I'm torn between going to an awesome day-loong birthday party inwhich I promised to go to. Or a good gig inwhich the band I like are only playing in this city once.

Thanks, God.

=(

I promise, I have not left you, nor will I ever, LJ.

Just, I've been someplace eslse. Please don't be angry.

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No, I should not be planning this. I should not be doing this, for I know there will only be streife during it all. But I want this stretch of the highway to see.

"If I was young, I'd flee this town
I'd bury my dreams underground
As did I, we drink to die, we drink tonight

Far from home, elephant gun
Let's take them down one by one
We'll lay it down, it's not been found, it's not around

Let the seasons begin - it rolls right on
Let the seasons begin - take the big king down

Let the seasons begin - it rolls right on
Let the seasons begin - take the big king down

And it rips through the silence of our camp at night
And it rips through the night

And it rips through the silence of our camp at night
And it rips through the silence, all that is left is all that i hide."

I think I might have drank and smoked alittle too much tonight.

DAMN it was good catching up with people from high school.


And now to some writing.

This weekend I'm planning. I need to sort out everything and be done with it.

I feel a little desolate, maybe it's because I did not work out this week.

I'll join the bath house down the block tomorrow and swim for a while.

You know, I finally realized that I find one song I devote all my music time to and listen for weeks/months. No other song but one for that time.

Weird.

Your day breaks, your mind aches
You find that all her words of kindness linger on
When she no longer needs you

She wakes up, she makes up
She takes her time and doesn't
feel she has to hurry
She no longer needs you

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years!

You want her, you need her
And yet you don't believe her when
she says her love is dead
You think she needs you

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years!

You stay home, she goes out
She says that long ago she knew
someone but now he's gone
She doesn't need him

Your day breaks, your mind aches
There will be times when all
the things she says will fill
your head
You won't forget her

And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years.

I feel as if I have done/said something wrong that has put me past a certain point or missed a chance.

Rules-
1. Comment to this post and I will reply with 3 things I love about you.
2. What’s the catch? Oh, there is a small one…
3. If you comment on this you must make a post in your own journal with three things you love about yourself.
4. You don’t have to re-post the entire meme, but you must at least post three things you love or like about yourself. They can be physical, emotional, silly, deep, anything you want as long as they’re about you.

1 - My HAIR!
2 - My recent craze of exercise.
3 - Apathy. I have a lot.

 Well, I should apologise for that last entry. So, sorry about that folks. It was just things I wished I had never seen and espically since it was a Christmas party and I had WAY too much to drink.

Other then that, I suppose I have some things to sort out for next year:

-Moving out with my friend Cam.
-Travel around the US&Canada for three months.
-Go to Italy for a month to train.
-Move to London for a year to train people for my old work.

Guess I'll actually have to sit back and have one of those life decisions people talk about. I guess there is the fifth option of not doing anything, but that does seem rather bland.

Well, it's hot as buggery and I can't sleep.

Win.

Fuck that, seriously.

That was like fuckin watching a train wreck.

Fucking merry christmas.

No more!

So, have I ever told you all of how amazing my friend Thao is?

No? Well, I shall to have reserve some time to do that.

Through thick and thin, I know she'll always be there to hold my hand and for that, I can never thank her enough.

Also, her roomates are like a second family to me. Possibly the happiest place she can be.

Much love, my Asian banana.

Oh yeah, I have to update about Farm Life and Chaz's dress up birthday party. Being Jesus was a hit.

Quiz this!


BOY SIDE—-
[X] You love hoodies.
[X] You love jeans.
[X ] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It’s hilarious when people get hurt.
[X] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own a car racing game.
[ ] You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[X] You owned a DS, PS3, Wii,or 360.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[X] You have watched sports on TV
[X] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You used to collect hockey cards.
[ ] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[ ] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[X] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favourite colours.
[X] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun
[ ] You talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] You sleep with your socks on at night.
[X] You have fished at least once

—-YOUR GIRL SIDE—-
[X] You love to shop.
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You wear the colour pink.
[ ] You go to your mum to talk.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the colour black.
[ ] You like going to the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[X] You like wearing jewellery.
[ ] You cried watching The Notebook.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favourite hobbies.
[ ] You don’t like the movie Star Wars
[X] You are/were in gymnastics
[ ] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[X] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[X] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing high heel shoes.
[ ] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[X] You like putting make-up on others.
[ ] You like being the star of everything.
[ ] Pink is one of your favourite colours.

• Appearance •

[ ] I am shorter than 5'5".
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan/ burn easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[X] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[X] I’ve had/have braces.
[X] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[X] I have more than two piercings.
[X] I have / had piercings in places besides my ears.

• Embarrassment •

[ ] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[X] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[X] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[X] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[X] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

• Health •

[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] Broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[X] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I’ve had serious surgery.
[ ] I’ve had chicken pox.

• Travelling •

[X] I’ve driven / ridden over 300 kilometres in one day.
[X] I’ve been on a plane.
[X] I’ve been to Europe.
[X] I've been to Asia.
[X] I've been to North America.
[ ] I've been to South America.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Rand McNally.

• Experiences •

[ ] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[X] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[X] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[X] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[X] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[X] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[X] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[X] I’ve crashed a car.
[X] I’ve been skiing.
[X] I’ve been in a musical.
[X] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[X] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[X] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[X] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[X] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[X] I’ve been snowboarding.

• Relationships •

[X] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[X] I’ve gotten divorced.
[X] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[X] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

• Honesty / Crime •

[X] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[X] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[X] I’ve snuck out.
[X] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[X] I’ve ran a red light.
[X] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[X] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[ ] I’ve been arrested.

• Death and Suicide •
[ ] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[X] I’ve seen someone/something dying.
[X] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
[X] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

• Materialism •
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga.
[ ] I own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[X] I collected comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie

• Random •

[ ] I can sing well.
[X] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[X] I open up to others easily
[X] I watch the news.
[X] I don’t kill bugs.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[X] I care about grammar.
[ ] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[ ] I love spam.
[X] I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
[ ] I bake well.

[ ] My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[X] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[X] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[X] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room. And mosquitos. Fuck mosquitos.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[X] I like white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[X] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names.
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[X] All my answers were totally honest.



Totally.

So, have been away for a while, you know, doing stuff.

As a catch up, I'll be throwing out tangents like pies.

My best friend Thao had her 25th a couple of weeks back. T'was great, had an awesome time and the fact that six of us made a gigantic box filled with kid toys was amazing. Thankfully she loved it, or I might have thrown her in it, sealed and driven it off a cliff. I had to sit, watching a Harry Potter movie while making the damn thing.

Also went to the Keilor Cemetary to see her brother. Sombering moment, as I was in the US when he passed away and was not able to be there for her. Weirdly, it was really considerate of her to ask me to come along.


Saw an ok band that one of out friends (Mands) is promoting. The musical side was fantastic, yet the main guitar/vocals was lacking in a few sets. I mean, not to be really mean, but when he rants about how many revisions of this song he's done and how it was inspired about a guy that was in the Iraq war, you invision a story of loss, hope, death and all that wonder. No, it was just him repeating three lines over and over: "He got shot in the head, the motherfucking head."

Talent.

Life news: my trip to the US/Canada and Alaska might be postponed for a while. Seems work might pay me to go get me educated in Italy for a month or two. So, we'll see how that pans out.

There was more I wanted to talk about, yet cannot remember.

Oh yeah, I really need to move out. I'm slowly going insane here. VERY slowly.

Also, tried writing/RP'ing. Seems I've lost my skewed views with my character/writing style. It's like I'm everyone else. I need to boost my ego more, I suppose. Or re-read Kiss Me, Judas for the hundreth time.

Also need to go print out my God cards for the dress up party we are having in a couple of weeks.

Party Question:
What did you want to be when you grew up?

Me:
God.
 

I think I'm done here. Well, guess I should go do something. Oh, I stole Dexter from my friends, maybe I'll watch that.


Yeah.